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can someone tell me where are they? or can someone tell me what they are?

i desperately feel that i need a retreat. to somewhere like maldives, where there's only the sea sky and pool. and there's myself to face myself, my own reflection. there will be only me, ugly me inside-out.

disappear and be on my own.

i should come back with a clearer mind, starting afresh.
let me breathe the fresh air and cleanse my soul.

perhaps i should apologise for saying all that hurtful things in that other space. those confused thoughts which has got the better of me but am glad that i have now learnt what/who is right for me.

but i guess theres a price to pay for all the play that you have done, and i guess i must be paying mine now. i can blame no one but myself as i kinda brought this along.

hate it. hate it. as much as you regret as wish to turn back time, i know its impossible. right now the question is, how do we take it on from here?

is there still a chance?
(i'll probably have a hard time convincing B, and maybe in the end, he might not even be convinced at all) i guess i should take some time alone to think abt these.

it will be a good time to blog.
or rather, a good time to keep intouch with blogging. maybe i could be more frequent here now.

10.17am, its raining now and i got super no mood to work.
its a long day and long battle with the zzz monsters. come 6.01pm pls come to me soon.

feel so empty, every night i come home to a house with an empty heart. with nothing to look fwd to, without a balance of happiness. ive lost my balance, i dunno where it went.

every week, days goes on, it goes on but carries nothing, i just dont feel happy and at ease. things are just different.
where is that balance?
what have i done wrong?

the story behind the scenes

behind every successful men, lies a self sacrificial woman. im beginning to understand that...

WOMEN...

allow themselves to believe, half the time only to find that they were cheated.

some, times...

sometimes some things couldnt stay true... perhaps it wasnt even meant to be true in the first place.
some things are better left unsaid. the unnecessary expectations, the unnecessary emotions, the unnecessary sadness.

可见，有此美梦应不能成真儿美。

但，人都太贪心了。