the messages?

first it was this:

The Beatles - Let it Be
When I find myself in times of trouble, mother Mary comes to me,
speaking words of wisdom, let it be.
And in my hour of darkness she is standing right in front of me,
speaking words of wisdom, let it be.

Let it be, let it be, let it be, let it be.
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be.

And when the broken hearted people living in the world agree,
there will be an answer, let it be.
For though they may be parted there is still a chance that they will see,
there will be an answer. let it be.

Let it be, let it be, .....

And when the night is cloudy, there is still a light, that shines on me,
shine until tomorrow, let it be.
I wake up to the sound of music, mother Mary comes to me,
speaking words of wisdom, let it be.

Let it be, let it be, .....


then it was this:

Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference


is God trying to tell me something now?

I await for a new me to be reborn.

My life has become so quiet that all I hear are just my own thoughts, running and running like a treadmill.

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At the end of the day, you are still all alone facing it urself. No one understands it better than yourself. Sometimes it's better to just keep quiet and go.

Avril Lavigne I Love You

You’re so beautiful
But that’s not why I love you
I’m not sure you know
That the reason I love you is you
Being you
Just you
Yeah the reason I love you is all that we’ve been through
And that’s why I love you

[this is a beautiful song that represents all i wanted to say; just for u]

Ppl usually think u are being silly or ridiculous when u say u wanna end ur life because of a failed rship or a heartbreak or some hardships u have met in ur life. Ppl think u are just venting ur frustrations or simply joking or seeking attention. But the day they find out that u are actually not kidding at all, is the moment when u have left this world.

If everyone was kidding, then there wouldn't be so many suicidal cases that have taken place.
If everything could be settled logically, those ppl would not have died.

U really wanna know how bad it is!!!!????!!

Let me tell u now.

Every bloody night, each bloody hour I check your whatsapp login status.
And everytime, whether u are online or offline, I wonder what u are busy with. And it is worse when I keep seeing that ur "last seen was at bla bla am/pm". My thoughts go wild! I wonder where u have disappeared to. And u must be outside and busy that's why u didn't even login to whatsapp. And for u, such a phone addict to not touch ur phone means u must be really occupied with something right?! And I ask myself what could make u SO occupied, and I continue wondering again. Most of the times I just kept thinking is it u are with the girls? The girls? Some girl? And I tell U, this is DRIVING ME INSANE.

I know it not ur fault or non of ur biz. But U CAN'T BLAME ME RIGHT?!! U drove me this stage of insanity. I am really going mad if this continues on and I KNOW IT WILL. I seriously seriously wish I could sleep and not wake up anymore because I really can't take any more of this insanity. I am losing my mind and pls let me die or release me before I loose my mind.

PLEASE.

Why do u keep saying sorry to me?
Is it because u are guilty of something ?